Thinking

Been doing a lot of thinking today about whether or not Dave should reenlist next year. Drill weekend is coming which I always dread so I think that's what's got me thinking more than anything. I don't like him being away from us. But I can deal with a weekend every month and a few weeks here and there. Although I don't like it one bit! What I really don't like is the thought of him re-deploying. That terrifies me. The one and only time he was deployed was pure agony. I lost friends, my faith in trusted loved ones ended. It was just hard. With that said, I now know I have some really good friends and family that really would be there for me. I've got to remember I moved twice during that time. Even though Clarence was closer to home it was still new. I was able to make the best of it but it was still difficult feeling alone. I know Julia and JD would be there for me as well as Anna Louise and Marnie. Marcia couldn't come see everyday but she would support me. Dave's parents aren't too far away. Mrs. Montgomery would certainly support me however possible. Of course, my wonderful church family. I am so blessed to be apart of 2 wonderful church homes. Brandon would be older and be able to babysit some so I wouldn't feel like I am stuck at home. So, I know in that regards I wouldn't be alone. But it still wouldn't be the same as having Dave here. I just don't know. I know next year we are looking at getting Brandon's braces. The dental insurance would sure come in handy. Health insurance as well. It's substantially cheaper than the prison's. The big thing would be retirement. But, boy that's 10 years away. I guess I just need to keep praying that God will show me the right answer. We've got 11 months before we have to make this important decision. Hopefully, if we do decide to re-enlist and he did get deployed it wouldn't be as long as the first go round. 14 months was the longest in Naval Reserve history.

Other than my thinking it was a pretty good day. Bryce got his cavity filled. Dave's dental work isn't as bad as the Navy dentist seemed to think it was. He'll get 2 wisdom teeth pulled next week. Means he'll be home for that day! Yay! The lil' boys are in bed. They are getting to be a handful and a half! But that means they are normal. :)

Unfortunately and fortunately we are still going to have to travel to Kirksville every other week for PT. It had looked like the boys could have PT at home but First Steps hasn't found anyone willing to come into the home. But, that's kinda good to because we really like PT Dave. It just would have been nice to not have to load everyone up.

Tomorrow, Selena comes to work with the boys! They always enjoy that and it wears them out which is good for me. :)

Tonight my show Biggest Loser comes on! Yahoo! Need to get back in gear with my whole weight loss deal. I pretty much stopped my diet over my birthday weekend. Thankfully, there wasn't too much damage done. But, I need to start hitting it hard again. Need to re-pledge on biggestloser.com since I reached my first goal.

I think that's all that' s on the little mind of mine. :) Until tomorrow!